Seven months...
It's been almost seven months since I've posted anything... but since Nick is currently in Georgia and I don't have anyone else to talk to after midnight... I needed a place to vent/process... so here goes:
1) I just talked to my mom. Every time I talk to her, it's always long and drawn-out and I usually end up crying... before, during, or after. Currently, she has TWO boyfriends and her "complicated" relationships are compounded by low self-esteem, depression, pity, addiction, loneliness, victim mentality, and patterns of abuse and obsession. She has not been "herself" for over a year now. I miss my mom and am very concerned for her mental, emotional, and physical health. I also miss being close to her (even though I know more about her personal life than I'd ever care to know)... I have detached myself quite a bit from her and our relationship will probably never be the same. I haven't seen her in a long time... over a month. And I don't know when I'll see her next.
2) I LOVE my new job. I do miss my old school (esp. the kids, close friends, and familiarity of it all), but I really needed a change of pace and location. Nick says that my role as a Curriculum Support Provider is a job that is "perfect" for my personality. I've also been getting a lot of positive feedback from the teachers, parents, administration, and even students. Many people refer to me as the Vice Principal. It feels strange to have such a powerful role in my district (esp. at the age of 27). I also just started an 18-month master's program. I just decided to embrace the direction that I was being pushed, so (after a little self-evaluating and prayer) I decided to pursue a degree in Educational Leadership and Administration. I will be in class on Wednesday nights from 4 pm - 10 pm (with some extra classes here and there). I've already been putting in 10-12 hour days over the past few weeks, so the long-term effects are currently unknown. Granted, I don't have to take as much work home as I used to, but there is a lot of other responsibilities and meetings. Nick will be trying to finish his PhD this year... so I hope we don't become "passing ships in the night." It will also be interesting to see how long I will stay "out" of the classroom...
3) I still have a to-do list that is REALLY long. Some of the big ticket items include getting my wedding band fixed (rhodium-flashed yellow gold?), writing and sending thank you cards to my friends from the wedding (that was almost six months ago!), buying new tires for my car, changing my name on a few major documents (deed, mortgage, etc.), buying joint car insurance, applying for a one-time solar credit for my taxes, saving money and creating a budget system, and cleaning my house.
There are a few other things, but I think it's time to head to bed. I fell asleep on the couch mid-post. This is the third night this week I have done that. Look what happens when Nick is not around. It throws me off my routines!
Good night... eh... I mean... Good morning.
1) I just talked to my mom. Every time I talk to her, it's always long and drawn-out and I usually end up crying... before, during, or after. Currently, she has TWO boyfriends and her "complicated" relationships are compounded by low self-esteem, depression, pity, addiction, loneliness, victim mentality, and patterns of abuse and obsession. She has not been "herself" for over a year now. I miss my mom and am very concerned for her mental, emotional, and physical health. I also miss being close to her (even though I know more about her personal life than I'd ever care to know)... I have detached myself quite a bit from her and our relationship will probably never be the same. I haven't seen her in a long time... over a month. And I don't know when I'll see her next.
2) I LOVE my new job. I do miss my old school (esp. the kids, close friends, and familiarity of it all), but I really needed a change of pace and location. Nick says that my role as a Curriculum Support Provider is a job that is "perfect" for my personality. I've also been getting a lot of positive feedback from the teachers, parents, administration, and even students. Many people refer to me as the Vice Principal. It feels strange to have such a powerful role in my district (esp. at the age of 27). I also just started an 18-month master's program. I just decided to embrace the direction that I was being pushed, so (after a little self-evaluating and prayer) I decided to pursue a degree in Educational Leadership and Administration. I will be in class on Wednesday nights from 4 pm - 10 pm (with some extra classes here and there). I've already been putting in 10-12 hour days over the past few weeks, so the long-term effects are currently unknown. Granted, I don't have to take as much work home as I used to, but there is a lot of other responsibilities and meetings. Nick will be trying to finish his PhD this year... so I hope we don't become "passing ships in the night." It will also be interesting to see how long I will stay "out" of the classroom...
3) I still have a to-do list that is REALLY long. Some of the big ticket items include getting my wedding band fixed (rhodium-flashed yellow gold?), writing and sending thank you cards to my friends from the wedding (that was almost six months ago!), buying new tires for my car, changing my name on a few major documents (deed, mortgage, etc.), buying joint car insurance, applying for a one-time solar credit for my taxes, saving money and creating a budget system, and cleaning my house.
There are a few other things, but I think it's time to head to bed. I fell asleep on the couch mid-post. This is the third night this week I have done that. Look what happens when Nick is not around. It throws me off my routines!
Good night... eh... I mean... Good morning.
posted by xoxoandaloha @ 12:00 AM
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